I know, but... [It's tricky to find the words without it sounding petty, or self-pitying. She just knows the hollow ache inside her turns into a sharp slice when people keep coming her way. She wants to be left alone in the same breath she wants to be embraced. She wants to have something solid to say she has paid for what she's done. Not sit here in all these soft eyes and offers of mercy, when all she sees when she closes her eyes is the pain and rage on Vi's face. The spray of her blood.
He changes tack, thankfully.]
It's a bit cold already, honestly. Did you want the rest?
[She offers it over. Her appetite is as mercurial as her moods now.]
I know. [ a softer breath ] I'm not here to offer you forgiveness. I'm here to simply be. Maybe I'm not your "host", but I do want to be here for you. More than I could before.
[ he isn't saying she can't feel that way, for certain. and part of him wishes he could relate in some awful way, because she must feel awful in all kinds of ways, twisted and curling. instead, he will remain steadfast, because no one would want that for anyone - but all the same. ]
Hey now, I like to eat, but... [ a soft shake of the head, and he shifts just a little closer. ] I'm good.
[ quietly, he offers a hand out to her. ]
Whatever you are going through, even if it's hard to put into words... I'll be here, okay? Whether I'm around or not.
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He changes tack, thankfully.]
It's a bit cold already, honestly. Did you want the rest?
[She offers it over. Her appetite is as mercurial as her moods now.]
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[ he isn't saying she can't feel that way, for certain. and part of him wishes he could relate in some awful way, because she must feel awful in all kinds of ways, twisted and curling. instead, he will remain steadfast, because no one would want that for anyone - but all the same. ]
Hey now, I like to eat, but... [ a soft shake of the head, and he shifts just a little closer. ] I'm good.
[ quietly, he offers a hand out to her. ]
Whatever you are going through, even if it's hard to put into words... I'll be here, okay? Whether I'm around or not.