She looks to him with bleary eyes. The tears came at some point, but he's been spared the graceless sight of them. She even laughs a little, though it's under her breath and brief as can be.]
I don't know. You don't think I made a fool of myself?
I think I let it blind me before, though. I was angry not just for their deaths, but also for Scien's loss. I didn't understand what really happened, or what all the clues were pointing too because...I'd assumed too many things.
It can blind, certainly, but it also can clear clouded vision. If you weren't angry about what happened, would you have cared at all? Or simply stood and waited for actions to happen to your person. It serves its purpose.
I think I would have cared no matter what, but maybe... [She bobs her head back and forth, mulling the particulars over.] I might have hung back? I don't know.
[She puts a hand to her cheek, eyes downcast.]
Honestly, I'm still very angry. And now that it's over, I don't know what to do with it.
[She does smile a little now. Jokes on her, women's clothes don't have pockets.]
You know, you have been so very kind to me, Lucien. Thank you. And I think you're right. Anger can be useful in the right doses, at the right time.
[She shrugs. Her insides still feel like they've been churned through glass, that won't change very soon. He's helped a bit though, and for that she's very grateful.]
I might think twice before slapping someone who can't hit back again, though. Maybe I'll wait for a fair fight.
[ gender roles are fucking terrible too, of course.
there's a moment where he's actually a little taken aback at the ridiculous accusation that he's kind, not something he's particularly known for, but there is a part of him that likes rosamund quite a bit. she's interesting. maybe somewhat naive, but she's not timid, not waiting behind a mask - she doesn't seem to be hiding who she is. he can appreciate that much. ]
If you insist. [ he shoves his hands into his pockets. ] Don't trust that everyone will wait to fight fair, either.
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... Don't let them take your rage from you.
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She looks to him with bleary eyes. The tears came at some point, but he's been spared the graceless sight of them. She even laughs a little, though it's under her breath and brief as can be.]
I don't know. You don't think I made a fool of myself?
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Think it's more foolish to pretend this place doesn't make you angry. That rage doesn't serve a purpose.
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[She fidgets.]
I think I let it blind me before, though. I was angry not just for their deaths, but also for Scien's loss. I didn't understand what really happened, or what all the clues were pointing too because...I'd assumed too many things.
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[She puts a hand to her cheek, eyes downcast.]
Honestly, I'm still very angry. And now that it's over, I don't know what to do with it.
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Then keep it. Use it later.
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If there's a time when there's nothing else to keep you going, burn that instead.
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[She does smile a little now. Jokes on her, women's clothes don't have pockets.]
You know, you have been so very kind to me, Lucien. Thank you. And I think you're right. Anger can be useful in the right doses, at the right time.
[She shrugs. Her insides still feel like they've been churned through glass, that won't change very soon. He's helped a bit though, and for that she's very grateful.]
I might think twice before slapping someone who can't hit back again, though. Maybe I'll wait for a fair fight.
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there's a moment where he's actually a little taken aback at the ridiculous accusation that he's kind, not something he's particularly known for, but there is a part of him that likes rosamund quite a bit. she's interesting. maybe somewhat naive, but she's not timid, not waiting behind a mask - she doesn't seem to be hiding who she is. he can appreciate that much. ]
If you insist. [ he shoves his hands into his pockets. ] Don't trust that everyone will wait to fight fair, either.