I'm sorry, it really just feels like the more I try to help the more I hurt people. Maybe it wasn't just me, but after everything that's happened I wanted so much to be someone who can fix things. To prove I wasn't just here to mess everything up and get people killed.
Maybe my opinion isn't worth anything here, but I think it says a lot that you've been trying at all. You didn't even have to tell us what happened before, you know? You could've left us wondering to protect yourself, but you did tell us, and now you're trying to find answers for the others when you have the chance. That's not a bad thing.
I don't know if there's anything I could do to change your mind, but I know you're still trying to help us all, and I want you to know that I still trust you.
[god where did the time go. Anyway this takes her a little while to respond to.]
No, it is. I think very deeply on the things you tell me Kazuki. You're my friend.
It helps. Especially to know that you don't think less of me for what's happened. And that maybe I'm not totally messing things up.
I still trust you too. I care very much about you. I suppose it's just my turn to take a night away from the lounge for a bit? Just like you. Sometimes it really does get to be too much to take in.
Honesty means a lot to people, and I think you've been as honest as you can, so far. That makes it easy to trust you. And maybe things don't always go as planned, but that's the nature of these games, and I don't think it's fair to blame you for it.
Sometimes you just need to be anywhere else for a while. Sometimes it's hard to think when you're in a place like that. I get it. But if you need sometime to come be away from that with you, you can ask me anytime. Or, you know, any of your other friends.
I just might do that sometime. Thank you, Kazuki. Really, I mean it.
Just know that you can always call on me too? I care for you very much, and I know I wasn't part of your other team and you're very close to them, but you do have friends who'll help you outside of it too.
It would pain me greatly if anything were to ever happen to you. You're kind and clever and very fun to be around, and I'm grateful that I've gotten not one but two chances to know you.
I do know. And you don't have to be one of them to still be a friend.
[ ...it takes a moment to respond to the rest. he's not used to anyone being so open about caring for him like this, so he just... doesn't know how to respond, but eventually: ]
It's the same for me. I may not remember as much as I'd like, but I'm glad we got to meet again, anyway. I don't want to lose the chance to get to know you again.
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I just don't know what to do. I shouldn't have said anything about Siffrin.
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There's no one person to blame here.
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I'm sorry, it really just feels like the more I try to help the more I hurt people. Maybe it wasn't just me, but after everything that's happened I wanted so much to be someone who can fix things. To prove I wasn't just here to mess everything up and get people killed.
And now it's all I ever seem to do.
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You didn't even have to tell us what happened before, you know? You could've left us wondering to protect yourself, but you did tell us, and now you're trying to find answers for the others when you have the chance. That's not a bad thing.
I don't know if there's anything I could do to change your mind, but I know you're still trying to help us all, and I want you to know that I still trust you.
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No, it is. I think very deeply on the things you tell me Kazuki. You're my friend.
It helps. Especially to know that you don't think less of me for what's happened. And that maybe I'm not totally messing things up.
I still trust you too. I care very much about you. I suppose it's just my turn to take a night away from the lounge for a bit? Just like you. Sometimes it really does get to be too much to take in.
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And maybe things don't always go as planned, but that's the nature of these games, and I don't think it's fair to blame you for it.
Sometimes you just need to be anywhere else for a while. Sometimes it's hard to think when you're in a place like that. I get it.
But if you need sometime to come be away from that with you, you can ask me anytime.
Or, you know, any of your other friends.
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Just know that you can always call on me too? I care for you very much, and I know I wasn't part of your other team and you're very close to them, but you do have friends who'll help you outside of it too.
It would pain me greatly if anything were to ever happen to you. You're kind and clever and very fun to be around, and I'm grateful that I've gotten not one but two chances to know you.
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[ ...it takes a moment to respond to the rest. he's not used to anyone being so open about caring for him like this, so he just... doesn't know how to respond, but eventually: ]
It's the same for me. I may not remember as much as I'd like, but I'm glad we got to meet again, anyway. I don't want to lose the chance to get to know you again.