...I don't think there's anything wrong with that.
[ it's true that the situation isn't as desperate or unknown. they know death isn't permanent, and that it is scheduled, and the reasons behind it. but there is still room for individual feeling, he thinks. ]
I'm used to putting everything into trial, because we had to. People told me last time to still think about the victims, too. It's still true now.
Hmm. [She huffs, looking down at her feet.] I suppose so. It's the only place we can put our energy. And it's the only place we get a little bit of justice done, if we're clever about it.
Still. I guess I'm sort of shaming myself, in a way. For feeling bad, but not nearly bad enough. I just didn't get the time to know Essek, so I can't quite feel like I'm...representing him? I guess? I'm sad for him, but not exactly because of him. And I don't like it.
I want very much to find out what happened to him and bring this whole thing to a close, I just know I would hate to die and have everyone just shrug and carry on.
[She pauses.]
Gosh, I'm so rude. Now I'm just laying a bunch of stuff on your shoulders without asking. I'm sorry, Nanase. Please ignore me.
[ haru isn't much of a talker anyway, so this is genuinely fine. he listens patiently, waiting until she apologizes and he's sure she's done to respond. ]
...It's okay.
[ he doesn't mind. ]
You're practically my teammate. [ teammate... in law. ] You can talk as much as you want. [ ... ] You're still sad. It's not a problem that you aren't the most sad.
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[ it's true that the situation isn't as desperate or unknown. they know death isn't permanent, and that it is scheduled, and the reasons behind it. but there is still room for individual feeling, he thinks. ]
I'm used to putting everything into trial, because we had to. People told me last time to still think about the victims, too. It's still true now.
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Still. I guess I'm sort of shaming myself, in a way. For feeling bad, but not nearly bad enough. I just didn't get the time to know Essek, so I can't quite feel like I'm...representing him? I guess? I'm sad for him, but not exactly because of him. And I don't like it.
I want very much to find out what happened to him and bring this whole thing to a close, I just know I would hate to die and have everyone just shrug and carry on.
[She pauses.]
Gosh, I'm so rude. Now I'm just laying a bunch of stuff on your shoulders without asking. I'm sorry, Nanase. Please ignore me.
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...It's okay.
[ he doesn't mind. ]
You're practically my teammate. [ teammate... in law. ] You can talk as much as you want. [ ... ] You're still sad. It's not a problem that you aren't the most sad.
I think... he'd appreciate being thought of.