Hmm. [She huffs, looking down at her feet.] I suppose so. It's the only place we can put our energy. And it's the only place we get a little bit of justice done, if we're clever about it.
Still. I guess I'm sort of shaming myself, in a way. For feeling bad, but not nearly bad enough. I just didn't get the time to know Essek, so I can't quite feel like I'm...representing him? I guess? I'm sad for him, but not exactly because of him. And I don't like it.
I want very much to find out what happened to him and bring this whole thing to a close, I just know I would hate to die and have everyone just shrug and carry on.
[She pauses.]
Gosh, I'm so rude. Now I'm just laying a bunch of stuff on your shoulders without asking. I'm sorry, Nanase. Please ignore me.
[ haru isn't much of a talker anyway, so this is genuinely fine. he listens patiently, waiting until she apologizes and he's sure she's done to respond. ]
...It's okay.
[ he doesn't mind. ]
You're practically my teammate. [ teammate... in law. ] You can talk as much as you want. [ ... ] You're still sad. It's not a problem that you aren't the most sad.
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Still. I guess I'm sort of shaming myself, in a way. For feeling bad, but not nearly bad enough. I just didn't get the time to know Essek, so I can't quite feel like I'm...representing him? I guess? I'm sad for him, but not exactly because of him. And I don't like it.
I want very much to find out what happened to him and bring this whole thing to a close, I just know I would hate to die and have everyone just shrug and carry on.
[She pauses.]
Gosh, I'm so rude. Now I'm just laying a bunch of stuff on your shoulders without asking. I'm sorry, Nanase. Please ignore me.
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...It's okay.
[ he doesn't mind. ]
You're practically my teammate. [ teammate... in law. ] You can talk as much as you want. [ ... ] You're still sad. It's not a problem that you aren't the most sad.
I think... he'd appreciate being thought of.